Gangstas' Delight

300

2007-03-14T20:14:00.000-07:00

"give them nothing, but take from them, EVERYTHING!!!"
fucking AYE.....
man, 300 is the best movie i've watched this year.. (so far)..
not to mention, there's some pretty heavy contenders coming up..
Spiderman 3, transformers, TMNT and even AVP 2: Survival of the Fittest is scheduled for release in the states on 10th Dec. And just in case you're all wondering: is this AVP gonna be another PG13 movie... HELL NO.. its gonna be R all the way.. YEAH!!!!!!
Blood and GOre and a hell lot of violence, thats what AVP is all about..
Resident evil: Extinction is coming out too, hills have eyes 2 and hostel 2.. seems that this year is the year for sequels. but hey, i ain't complaining.. Shit's cool man..
anyways, MR500's this weekend followed by master series next weekend, back to back rowing competitions... Damn, i'm feeling all tingly inside.. excited cos i'm aiming to smoke all those other suckers including the national team. Ha.. Watch it!!!!
well, see ya all on the flip side.. will try to watch more movies so i stuff to write abt.. hahaha..

Peace dawgs......

tuesday

2007-02-26T18:34:00.000-08:00

Yawnss...
its another day in the office with nuthing much to do. haha.. and to make matters worse, yours truely is broke!! Damn!!
anyways, i watched the last episode of the OC and i just can't help feeling sad that its over..
During army, i would look forward to watching The OC.
i guess its time to move on..
i don't get it, are the ratings for the show really that bad?? So bad that they had to cancel it? Argh!!! Bullocks...
well, nothing much to update but i guess i could use this post to dedicate to a fren who's overseas and freezing her butt off..
haha.. YO XUAN!!!! if u read this, hope your doing alright there and gettin some hot ANG MO action!! hahaha...
on the other hand, i've got a couple of races lined up... mostly Dragon boat.. but someone's gonna make a comeback. So watch out! there's a hurricane coming through!!! Whoooo...
can't wait for next week cos the movie 300 is gonna be released and i intend to watch it on opening day with my gd fren Sotong... haha.. something to look forward to..
" Spartans! Tonight, we dine in HELL!!!!" how awesome is that.... WHOA!!!!!!!!!
The departed won Best Picture at the Oscars?? hmm, the angmo infernal affairs is that good meh?? gotta go catch it on dvd.....
and if you guys have time, go check out Reese Witherspoon at oscars.. she looked absolutely stunning....... DAMN.........

Work

2007-02-07T19:29:00.000-08:00

Man... i'm writing a post in the office cos i'm sooo lethargic rite now..
lets see.. to my left is the door leading to the stairs which by the way is super creepy...
to my right is the entrance to the main office area where the perm staff work..
behind me is my colleague who injured her knee, girl, u gotta take care of yourself!!
and to my front is the wall..
yes ladies and gents, i'm sitting facing the wall.. feels like i'm being punished in sec sch.. hey!
but i'm getting punished while being paid..haha, why can't schs do the same??
well, my day on the job is relatively mandane..
come into the office, sit on my ass and key in measurements into the system...
life's a breeze... hai....
maybe its the weather but i've been feeling rather down lately..
think i need more sun!!! while superman draws his powers from the sun, the sun makes make feel happier.. haha..
come out sunshine!! its time to BBQ my ass.. haha...
its Thursday.. weekend's round the corner, time for me to kick back and wake up later for a change.. this somewhat feels strangely like school days..
but i'm not complaining.. cos i get paid!! hahahahahahaha :)

Emo...

2007-02-04T04:48:00.000-08:00

kinda feeling half sad and angry..
how did that happen?? Explanation anyone?
ah well....
no matter how much i try to distant myself, i just care too much..
have you ever cared for someone that no matter what happens. you just wan them to be happy and you would give anything to give them just that..
well, advice to those out there who are having problems..
life hits you hard..
sometimes, life hits you till you can't breathe and you wanna take the easy way out..
well, it doesn't matter how hard it hits us, its how much we can take and keep moving forward.

i dunno abt u guys but moving forward is harder for me than just taking hit after hit.
BE Strong and never quit!
no matter what your life is throwing at you, just take it and keep moving cos we're all
stronger than what we think we are..

Inspiration speeches are sometimes necessary cos afterall, we need encouragements every now and than.......

Take care 1 and all :)

A fairytale............

2007-01-27T02:35:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there was a guy who met a girl outside a club and was immediately smittened by here............

hello one and all... i'm the guy in the story so here goes.....
blah blah blah blah......
you know what, i was gonna take this opportunity to pour my heart and say how heartbroken i am..
Fuck that....
i ain't that weak.. alright, i try to be mr nice.. be sensitive to your feelings and i even compromise.. i could walk away and leave you feeling like shit but guess what, i decided to hang around.. So, as the last nice thing i do for YOU!!!! i hung around till you were ready to let go..
and i guess you did.. There ya go.. Happy now?? happy that you literally destroyed, temporary that is, my Happy Feeling.. but its all worth it cos now you can have everything you want!
you got friends who care, a Boyfriend who pampers you (most of the time) and a social life in Uni which is soooo impt to you.. but i guess i'm just 2 nice... i couldn't bare to see you hurt so i decided to put myself out there for you...
there ya go.. i hope you found what you're looking for..
making me the scapegoat and throwing me aside. i guess i should have known better but i let my heart do the walking for me.. i wish that it isn't u who wants this but you wrote it to me, so i can only take it that you meant it. Say what you mean and mean what you say...
you know what pisses me off the most, that i convinced myself that this is gonna be different and that you weren't like most girls.. hmmm.... WRONG!!!
3 strikes, my fren told me, 3 strikes and thats it.. but i gave in to you time and time again but it was me who was struck out..

but all that was just my anger...
i hope that you learn from this and.......... HOLD the fuck on....
i don't care what you learn from this.. hmm, maybe how to break a guy's heart..
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.... this is me babe... this is all ME.... maybe it was better that you didn't get with me or else i would have thrown you out of my house and... OH wait, you already experienced that rite...
nice and sensitve, fuck that, maybe cold and cowardly....
maybe..
i'm not the least bit hurt... i'm not the least bit affected by this cos you are not worth my time and attention... i have had it with people pushing me around like i'm some nice guy..
fuck that!!!!! i'm gonna just walk away so you can taste the sand that i kicked in your face...

well, i don't think that you will read my blog anymore since you "lost" my number, probably deleted my msn.. and never wanna talk to me ever again...
hmm, strange cos i don't remember doing anything wrong..

SO... ladies and Gents, and my fellow good frens who read this post.. i hope you find it entertaining and amusing.

Peace Biatch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S: all materials were in one way or another are based on actual events.. Enjoy :)

Smoothness

2007-01-20T06:31:00.000-08:00

Whoohoooooo ladies and gent.. this bad boy had the best week in a long time..
haha..
Mon: i worked hard and i got rewarded followed by Mr john Legend.. he was awesome, talented and charismatic... he's got 5 stars man!!! hahaha...
Tues: Muse!!!!!!!!! i love Muse.. thanks to ms ling yu and her very very nice bf Mr Sam for providing the tics. i owe u guys big.. Starlight!!! my fav song was played at the ending, i was literally screaming along.. hahaha.. i hope they come back again..
Wed: Met my good frens from sec sch.. man, i miss them.. seems like everything in our lives has turned out for the best.. even for mine.. hahaha..
Thursday: had a lovely dinner with my mum :) can't bear to see my mum alone at home for long.. and whoever has a prob with that.. Erm... ok lo... hahaha..
Friday: met my canoeing team for the first time in ages.. found out that my ex is attached to another teammate.. pretty upsetting but i guess i can only be happy for her cos i know that guy. and he's a good guy.. not like some fuckhead who drives a crappy red mazda 3.. feel like scratching every red mazda 3 i see on the road.. better not let me see or else......... I'll....... Grumble and walk away.. hahaha...
Saturday: Rowed 22k with andrew... super tiring.. and i got to see someone.. hmm.. haha.. dunno le.. feel like a sec sch kid.. hahaha...
Sunday: erm... has yet to be decided.. haha...

well, thats the timetable for the week.. it was super exciting, i wish every week could be like that.. its been a while since i've felt satisfied and happy without having someone by my side.. and statisticly, only 4 out of the 20 teammates that i have are attached. so there's no shame in it man.. we're gd-looking, we're smart, we're desirable... so its just a waiting game..

peace out and take care frens....
except to those who i can't stand!
and fuck those who dun give a shit about how other people feel. and leave us standing in the dark.. you all will get what u all deserve.. i promise u that..
this is a warning to all assholes and playas... you'd get whats coming to u one way or another.. so pray hard that the shit doesn't hit the fan cos when that happens. noone's gonna stand by your side.. when the dust clears, i hope you will learn...

Have a nice day :)

2007

2007-01-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

alright, so 2006 is is out of the window and into the past. along with army and heartaches. haha..
i guess its a good start for those who exited army just before the new year.
so to start off the new year, here are some of the things that made in onto my top 3 lists of 2006.
Movies: 1) Talledega Nights: the Ballad of Ricky Bobby (kickass show man!!!)
2)Singapore Dreaming (caught it on the plane, super heart warming)
3) Casino Royale ( James Bond as the bad ASS!!! Fu#King Aye!!!!!!)

Songs 1) Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance ( its not released yet but its part of their album. wicked sick song!!)
2) Fix You by ColdPlay (one of the best songs by coldplay Ever....)
3) These streets by Paolo Nutini( these guys pretty big in europe, think they'll be big here.. watch out for them!!)

Favourite Qoutes: 1) ORD LO!!!!!
2) ORD LO!!!!!
3) ORD LO!!!!! ( haha, its the best day of my 2 sucky years in army!!!)

Places that i went in 2006: 1) Liquid Rm ( love the music, freaking awesome, Dj Koflow rocks!) 2) Zouk ( Mambo, need i say more...)
3) S11 Amk ( Chicken Cutlet absolutely mind blowing!!!)

People who i hung out: 1) my FAv girls Alexis and Zeeq and Mr Vain Jerry Ho... though he's missing sometimes.. haha...
2) Ting Ting ( A.k.a: Sotong!!)
3) I, Myself and Me...

well, hopefully its the start of a better year cos 2006 really sucked, on most days...
i feel good about this year already. 2007 is gonna be off the hook..
Many things happened this year, alot of drama, abit too much for my liking if you ask me.
but i kinda realised who will stand by me whenever i'm feeling in the pits. too many occasions that i have to say: "dude, lets go get something to drink, i need to drink!" haha... fortunately, i ain't a alcoholic..
i've also realised that if we try to hold on to something too hard and too long, we will lose it eventually. rather than try to restrain it, let it breathe and it will be yours if you're meant to have it. Eg: I used to love my old PS console, i got it when i was pri 6. i would play with it 24/7 and not wanting to give it time to rest. keot on messing with it. finally it just broke down. well, not entire the same thing but you catch my drift huh.. haha...

to those who had 2006 fucked them over, Cheers Matess!
Here's to a better year :)

Time-Out

2006-12-07T23:56:00.000-08:00

its finally over but why do i still feel so down.
i went to watch happy feet but all i could do was feel sad
when i saw the lead penguin give up on his love interest.
all i could say was, its for the best... i wanted to mean it but i was just trying to comfort myself.
letting go was the hardest thing to do.. seeing someone u care about walk away, i couldn't bare the thought of it. i had to look away when she got into the cab.
i didn't wanna have the agony of seeing her go.
i'm glad that i met you and i couldn't imagine not having u in my life.
my fren told me something that made alot of sense and in a way, i liked the way it was phrased.
when someone leaves a gap in your heart, someone else cannot simply fill it because its an unique gap that only that one person can leave. noone can ever replace it.
i'm leaving for europe tmr.
not really looking forward to it but i guess its a good thing.
cos i need to get away from all of this.
i need a break.

My 2 Fav Gals.....

2006-12-02T02:04:00.000-08:00

been awhile since i blogged.
been busy at work and trying my best to keep occupied.. been feeling down lately. maybe work is getting to me. ha...
but last night was fun. went out with my 2 fav gals!! haha, Zeeq and Alex...
would have asked jerry but he was overseas. bro, your spirit was with us :) didn't drink much last night. had wine.. breezer and 1 shot of shit. didn't like it but it was cheap. haha...
i've been thinking alot about how selfish i was in the past. i screwed up with people who cared so much for me. but now, it seems that i'm getting what i deserve.
hope my winter will pass soon....
i'm looking forward to my Summer..................

P.S: yo Minyan, haha.. i'm heading to smu. thought about going to ntu but i have my doubts about going there.. tc...

countdown

2006-11-04T20:05:00.000-08:00

step right up ladies and gents..
cos i am on a one way ticket out of the ARMY!!!
whoohoooo...
i guess alot has happened in the past 2 years. met really great people and really shity ones.
still remembered the dreaded trip to Tekong..
that was a torture.
to all those who have made my life difficult, thanks.. cos i'm saying goodbye to you..
i dun need people to make me feel like crap.
to those who made my life worthwhile.. thanks a bigger bunch..
and too bad, i'm gonna irritate you guys till the cows come home..
had drinks with my friend and her office people..
not bad, socialising event.. her friend bought 4 to 5 towers of beer, shit, those guys are hardcore!!!!
hahaha.. i like..
exams coming up for alot of people.. all the best! i'll be in your shoes soon enough.
and my ORD party on wednesday, its gonna be off the hook..
its either i get totally wasted or my friends get smashed.. which ever way, its gonna be fun...
2 days to go.. i can't wait..
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on a serious note.. i've done some stuff that i ain't proud of but i'm gonna get it sorted out..

Goodbye SAF.. wouldn't wanna be with you, and would love to leave you!! hahaha....
so suck my backwash cos i'm saying goodbye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

48 hours and counting........................................................................................

P.S: lets party hard my brudders....

Monday Night

2006-10-10T00:15:00.000-07:00

well, ladies and gents..
my weekend was pretty, erm, eventful i should say..
and if you're thinking i'm gonna disclose it on my blog..
no way! too personal la...
moving on, i had a really nice chats with some of my close frens..
thanks so much for toleranting my sobbing state.
talked to alexis till late, like 4 plus.. shit, haven't talked like that in a while..
exchanging lame ass jokes.. it was relieving.
anyways, we decided to meet up with a couple of friends to have a drink.
trust me, i needed a drink sooo bad..
we met at holland V in the evening for dinner and drinks at Wala Wala..
jerry, alexis, Zeeq and even mr fabian joined us just b4 happy hour ended..
and boy did we drink.. i think i spend like 100bucks on drinks last night..
now i'm broke.. broke ass nigga.. hahaha..
i was so happy to know that these guys, amidst their busy schedule, they still came down..
i am super touch lo.. thks guys...
i drank, i drank, i drank, i drank and i drank somemore till i couldn't even walk straight..
check this out.. me and jerry tried some Jackass stunt, we decided to test extinguishing a cig using the palm of our hand..
"AH!!!!!!! fuck, that hurt like shit!!!!" hahaha, i laughed my ass off when jerry did it.
My turn, i stuck the cig into my palm and put it out. yea, it did hurt but it was nothing like the pain i was feeling inside. nothing hurts more than a broken heart..
in the end, my brudder fabian took me home..
respect la bro..
overall, i had a good time..
i dun hate her. i have never had any ill thoughts about what she did.. for once in my life, i felt no hate, no anger, no regrets.. friends tell me that its her lost. but i think its my lost... she deserves so much more than me. she deserves the world and all the wonderful things that life has to offer.
i guess life is like that, you have to treasure the things you have, cos you dunno when it'll be gone. be grateful of the moments that took your breath away and the memories that made you smile. She made me smile and that is all i can ask for. i can't ask for more..
we should not ask more from life but embrace the gifts it bestows on us. cos we are but mere mortals that live in a world filled with miracles that are bigger than all of us..
i wish you the best in your endeavours .
and to my friends who were there for a friend in need. THANK YOU :)

Whooo, Saturday night Live Baby...

2006-10-07T21:13:00.001-07:00

here we go..
the lights deem and out comes... A fat dude???
"ladies and gentlemen, pls put your hands together for the one and onlyRussel Peters!!!!"
the crowd goes wild.. standing ovations.. AHHHH!!!! WHOOOO!!!!!!!!!

the evening was simply hilarious!!!
he nailed joke after joke about how cheap indians were, how the english can't pronounce their Ts... the difference between mandarin and cantanese..
It was Good.
It was Funny.
And man, did he rock the house...
i'm glad my date also enjoyed the show, hope it relieved abit of her stress cos with her exams coming up, she's feeling the pressure.. cheer up babe.. it'll be over soon..
got home late... waited for the stupid bus for a pretty long time..
but here's the messed up part,
i saw this kid. no older than 12, smoking away..
My gosh!!! i wanted to slap him and put the cig out..
but to make matters worst, there were other minors puffing away..
and noone seems to find it disturbing.
i wish parents can better educate their young ones...
and if they grow up and still persist on wanting to smoke, by all means, smoke on.. its your life.
but below that age where you still live with your parents and spend their money..
for heavens sake, dun do stupid shit...
feel weak and sick recently, not sure why.. think i might be down with something..
might be the weather.. hope the sky clears soon. its making me feel down..
i think i'm kinda like superman, i need constant exposure to the sun. its my source of energy..
:)

Wonder

2006-09-29T22:57:00.000-07:00

i've been wondering whether i'm doing the right thing..
i feel that perhaps i've made a mistake for being nice..
was playing ball yesterday and talked to my frens..
" Fuck la daniel, you're a pussy man!"
" what?? i'm not lo.."
" you rather be hurt than hurt! thats what i'm saying! You pussy!"
" haha, fuck that, i'll kick your ass in ball right now!"
" No way man!!!!!"
Am i really that soft?
i feel something coming..
a storm is brewing and i dunno whether i'll be able to take it all in this time around..
its different when you're angry with the army who screwed you over and when your life seems to go astray..
Why can't i have a life with no drama?
Hope.
Faith.
i stand alone and i will be the last man standing.
Some are born with everything going for them.
some are born with the need to survive.

As the good reverend once said:
Why we all are put together,
we will never know,
but i do know here today,
that the blacks knights will emerge victorious once again.

Amen.......

Bad day

2006-09-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

i'm super disappointed..
you said you'll tell me when you're home..
i waited...
i feel really dumb right now..
i don't wanna hurt like this anymore..
please stop it cos i can't take it..
you let that guy take you there knowing that i woudn't like it..
worst thing is you didn't even tell me..
forget it..
forget all of it..

Tired

2006-09-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

Man, i am so so tired right now.. had like 10 hours of sleep but still felt so tired..
hence, i took a day off work again to stay home and chill..
feel really bad for not meeting up with jerry, alexis and zq last night..
sorry guys...
man, i've become quite an avid drama serial watcher..
been catching up on Prison Break.. super nice man..
i wanna be like Scofeld.. he's super smart..
thts what i call being super detailed in your planning..
anyways, caught The Devil Wears Prada this weekend..
not bad.. quite funny but the lady behind me was laughing like
a freaking monkey..
it was super annoying..
oh.. my homeboy is coming back this fri!!! super excited.. hahaa..
haven't seen him in ages...
anyways, had a clubbing session on wednesday. had fun but i'm quite broke now..
think i'll lay back from any late night activities for now till i ord.. haha.. than its party time again.. haha...

chill guys :)

alice in wonderland/ 50 days

2006-09-18T00:33:00.000-07:00

alright.. here's my long lost post..
its currently a rainy and cooling afternoon on a monday..
and i just had an unhealthy meal of instant mee and peanut butter bread and milo for lunch..
my stomach is definitely not feeling gd.
but that aside.
went to catch Alexis's Play called Alice in wonderland where she played a bimbo...
WhoooHooo, alexis roxs man..
she was super duper funny.. Hilarious, i haven't laughed that hard in a long time. thx :)
and btw, she doesn't look all that bad in a D-cup. though it took abit of getting used to, but i
can imagine her as a D-cup service personnel working at the Singapore Tourism Board.
hahaha..
well, onto a more sensitive subject, the countdown has official began.. i have only 50 days before i ORD.
for those who dun know what it is, its a singaporean man's dream date.
he is official ready trained to protect his country and hereby released form his duties to pursue his dreams and ambitions.
it feels like yesterday that i entered army feeling empty and sad.
it wasn't the idea of going into army that sucked but the fact that someone didn't wish me gd luck..
well that was in the past and i'm really happy to have found someone special in my life.
for the first time in a long time i see how foolish and pathetic i was in the past.
grovelling at her feet to take me back. Ha...
those were the days.
karma has a weird way eh.. never do unto others what you dun want them to do to you..
or something like that. haha..
but i got my unfair share of torture and pain...
and i'm kinda grateful for it..
We grow stronger each time we face a Wall.. a Wall that refuses to move..
i'm begginning to accept the relationships of close frens around me..
Close frens have become gd frens, gd frens to frens... and so on..
but some close frens have become even better frens during this period..
life is strange and unpredictable.. i'm actually excited what the future holds for my family, frens and i..
cheerios..

Peace out S-town...
haha, haven't said that in a long time..
take care sweetie, zq, alexis, jerry, fab, quan, xuan, bee, leen, chris, ah xian, peng, ah wan, sotong, jeremy, chiams, kan chiong mama, steve................

Rowing

2006-07-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

Finally, i have come back to row again..

feels good to start canoeing again, i somewhat find a sense of security and calmness when i'm in the water and that i can go wherever i want in the water

the sun, sky and the wind in your face just makes it even more refreshing

wat do you do when u like someone, and you're not entirely sure whether she likes u back.
thats what everyone faces time after time haha... i wish i could read people's minds, that way, i wouldn't need to think that hard. hahaha..
stoopid !#$!@#, never even tell us when she's coming back. finally come back and doesn't even say.
well done! anyways, i can't be bothered.
time to get back on with life without army. i gotta get used to the civlian life b4 i head out to the world
i can't even imagine that its been 1 and a half years since i entered army, man, that is wicked!!!
hahaha.. and it still feels that my life has been stuck at the very same spot i left it ayear ago.
i guess its true that your life is kinda at a stand still when you're in army.
it doesn't really apply to everyone but i'm sure it can be related to alot of people.
life outside whizzes by and smiles, waving as they pass by. is that fair? does it make us happy?
i've learnt alot and wasted alot of time in army.
look, i'm not trying to say its a total waste of time but the system is flawed.
perhaps, we're being too hard on the system , the fact that they have to cope with millions of guys, they're doing a pretty alright job. though it can certainly be improved.
haha, anyways, go catch superman returns, niceeee movie, or maybe perhaps, its the company that mattered. happy as ever but still, something is missing. i hope i find it someday, or maybe, it can never be replaced.
i leave the world for another week to protect the nation.
yah right :)

Strangers

2006-05-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well
I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

... Keane: "We might as well be strangers"

my heart's full of regret.
its heavy.
i can't move.
Strangers.
Lovers.
i feel no different.

Thailand Once More

2006-04-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

its been almost 6 months since i went to thailand for an exercise,
i can't believe its been that long since someone ended my journey to become something i worked so hard for. i was cut because he had something against me.
well, boo hoo muthafucker cos i dun give a shit!
you may put me down and you may cause me pain, but i'll tell you something,
my life has more than what you'll ever have in twice of your miserable lives put together.
and thats not saying very much of your smal pathetic life.
you think that with abit of power you have, you can try to ruin someone else's life?
no way, cos we'll just bounce right back and you'll be sorry and despised by all those around you.
this time around i'll be going up there to do specs proud!
take care one and all.
Bon voyage...........................................

everyone's changing

2006-04-25T21:30:00.000-07:00

just went for leen's birthday party. it was alright but somewhere along the line, our dear birthday girl didn't feel all that good.
was quite pissed, its her birthday, why can't everyone just be plain happy for her.
whoever that was insensitive about her feelings, fuck off!
hmm, recently, seems that people ignore my messages.
i dunno, perhaps its just their subtle way to say PISS OFF.
thanks for the kind gestures.
but honestly, take a hike u SOBs.
and steve another one, ask him to wait to go home, say he'll wait at the busstop, the dude just took a bus without telling me. i almost miss the bus cos of u!
your time so precious ah? news flash! i'm a trainee now and can only bk out on weekends and my pay is like crap. who's time is more limited?
dun give me shit cos one day, shit's gonna rain down on you.
and when that happens, pray that you've got an umbrella!!!

same SHIT, different day

2006-03-11T04:11:00.000-08:00

how many mistakes have we made in our lives and how many cause everlasting torment to yourself over and over.
been stood up, been played, been hurt, have hurt, have played, have stood up.
doesn't this equate to being equal?
looks like it right. but alas its not so. why?
is there something perpetually wrong in our lifes.
does the equation called life unable to equate itself?
you tell me the answer.
screw it, if the world and all its inhabitants fuck up, than heck it.
what to do?
if you are a victim of your own misdoings, what do you do?
how do you go through it?
i wanna know what makes your heart beat.
i wanna know what lights up your day and what dulls it.
i wanna hold you high above the clouds and set you free from the burdens of the world.
i wanna know.
so many things i wanna know.
but truth is.......
i'll never know...................

i'm so sick of love songs

2006-02-15T05:24:00.000-08:00

i'm sick of missing her.
i'm tired of dreaming about her.
i've had it!!! fine, i still love her!
SO? haha, i admit it and i feel good about it!
loving should be happy!
one advice! do what is important and good for you but also what makes you happy.
if you're happy, dun be paranoid and think you dun deserve it cos everyone does.
Everyone deserves to wake up and say : " hey, i feel fucking GOOD!!"

do something everyday that scares you! do something everyday that humbles you, it keep things in perspective.
pain is good. but to bring you down to earth so you float away when things get TOO WELL...

I came, I saw, I conquered!
Float like a Butterfly, Sting like a Bee :)
take care guys....

SICK

2006-01-24T05:35:00.000-08:00

wau lau ah...
i'm so so dying. throat is killing me, its been 3 months but the sore throat is still there...
was at work, than had a friend tell me i looked pale. haha..
i look pale??? cannot be la, got so much fats in my face, sure got blood in my face lo.

what do ya think??

2006-01-13T07:14:00.001-08:00

Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

Take'>http://www.quizgalaxy.com/quiz.php?id=57">Take this quiz at

The Humpty Dumpty Love Song

2006-01-13T07:14:00.000-08:00

All of the king's horses
And all of the kings men
Couldn't put my heart back together again
All of the physicians and mathematicians too
Failed to stop my heart from breaking in two

Cos all I need is you
I just need you
Yeah, you got the glue
So I'm going to give my heart to you
I had a premonition
A movie in my mind
Confirming my suspicions about what I would fineYou followed me to LA, down to Mexico
Came in through the back door
At the start of the show

chorus
Oh was a perfect
OH in a perfect way
You know, something had to go
You left me high,
you left me low
Now as I lie in pieces, await for your return
The sun upon my forehead
It burns, baby, burns, baby, burns
An eye on all my horses
You slept with all my men
I'm never going to get it together again

Strange stuff on the news

2006-01-04T06:00:00.000-08:00

just came across some wierd stuff on the news,
ladies use blogs to say that they were molested
along orchard road when they were blinded by foam sprays.
that is simply so twisted.
i was there during x'mas. i could have been one of them.
haha.. seriously, what were those guys thinking.
we begin to wonder where has the pride of the male species gone to?
are we slowly become enslaved by our own emotions rather than morals?
it's cool to be a rebel, to defy laws and behave like we are above it.
do we do it to impress? to gain attention and prove to others that we are different?
do something to impress yourself. do something that you can be proud of.
something that frens and family can be proud of.
perhaps one day, it'll be cool to do what's right and to be true to our heart.

P.S: take care in thailand brudder jun :)

running away

2006-01-03T03:26:00.000-08:00

i've realised that why people run away.
some run away to win.
some run away to avoid problems.
why do i run away?? i'm not sure about that but there's one thing that i'm certain,
time waits for noone. do i wanna occupy myself with activities and appointments?
Hell NO.... why? cos i dun wanna spend all that time, tire myself out and at the end of the day, i'm too tired to even think about the things i've done.
small details will slip by. perhaps its better not to know such little details cos than we'll regret it.
than again, the time given to us is fixed and limited. we have to decide what to do with it.
that sometimes come with a price.
on the other hand, we can choose to do nothing and watch the world go by.
after that happens, i wonder to myself, what do i have to show for??
now comes to the question of IS it important to have something to show for or
it is what we believe in our hearts that is more meaningful and more fulfilling.

i dunno what to think of the world now. things were alot simpler when i was younger.
why can't things be that simple? do we make things that complicated?
Ambition isn't wrong. but i guess everything is right or wrong in perspective.
i wonder, what then is, truely right?

results

2005-12-30T20:53:00.000-08:00

pretty accurate stuff.. haha..
amusing :)

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Long lost update..

2005-12-22T22:56:00.000-08:00

haven't been in the mood to write in my blog so a thousand apologies to those who have been irritated by the same post for a long time..
haha.. but i'm back and insane as ever..
nothing much has happened in my monotonous life except for certain complications at work.
anyways, i recently met up with peng, oli, shan and mr superman ah xian..
haha, made me eat like tons of food. but it was GOOD :) i love chicken rice.. haha.. thanks guys.
i also met up with my fav people, my group.
xuan, leen, quan, chris and the lovely ms bee who happens to be really happy right now becos she has a hubby. really nice chap who i'm guessing will be part of our group.
if not, i'll try to suck him in. haha...
to those who like me have nil plans and most probably staying home on chrismas and new year's eve. lets pray together for a x'mas miracle :)

take care and merry x'mas to all.
happy holidays.
leen, quan, xuan, ah xian, peng, chris, bee, oli, alexis, chiamlek, steven, jeremy heng, ze quan, shan, sotong, valerie :),jerry, fab, boon leong, jordan, junasis, samuel (8 men bunk). JAY too... haha, thought i forgot abt you huh, no way :)
you've made my year!!

P.S: mr heng, thanks bud for everything, army would have sucked without you, lets look to a brighter and happier future :)

Flightplan

2005-10-23T04:01:00.000-07:00

went to catch flight plan.
pretty good show and the twist was normal in some ways but not a bad movie.
gonna be flying off to thailand next week. for 2 weeks.
the last exercise before i find out whether i can commission.
ah well, i can't fight it so i guess i just gotta flow with it.
Watched the movie with her, everything just felt right for those couple of hours.
anyways, going out to ah shyuan, dun worry girl, i'm fine.
thanks.. gonna be really busy and i won't in town.
tk care of yourself and study hard.
its all up to you. we choose who we wanna be and noone can change that. you can do it shyuan.
to leen, chris and bee too. all the best for your exams.
to quan, sing to victory.
wdy, Study hard and all the best.

commissioning

2005-10-14T02:29:00.000-07:00

i've been pretty beat up these few months.
with me getting into all sorts of trouble.
quite funny if you think about it.
but seems like i may not commission after all.
this year hasn't been the best of years for me.
had lotsa blessings coming back to me but alas i still feel lost.
couldn't concentrate. smoking, drinking, partying.
being irresponsible. haha...
kinda like the slacker i wanted to be. i sacrificed everything, from the girl i
was crazy about to my principles. i haven't had the best of attitudes.
but SOCE has made a difference and drilled me to excel and be the best i can be.

... kinda realised that my blog's been really dull and sad. no movie reviews and stupid stuff happening. i guess that was really how i felt in the past few months. dull and empty, perhaps SOCE was really the place for me. to toughen me up. haha.. cos some actually said i quite koo niang. haha..

Btw, happy birthday Christie :)

long time

2005-09-25T02:33:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i last blogged.
nothing much happening in my life, just the same routine,
we rush to wait and wait to rush.
army is depressing.
hope time whizzes by soon...

Friends

2005-08-14T22:03:00.000-07:00

don't we always find ourselves facing the problem of communication with frens when we dun spent enough time with one another..
is it really that we lost that spark?
friends do not need to spend so much time together so long as their hearts are in the realtionship. the most important thing is to have faith in your frens and never give up hope.
i have faith in my friends, at the instant i'll be there without a shadow of a doubt...
but i guess we all aren't like that.. we r too busy to think about it.
i guess its a sacrifice that we all will make at a certain point of our lives.
we are who we choose to be.. the surroundings and situation don't define us, we define ourselves, our friends are the windows of who we really are inside.

i miss her........

safe trip

2005-08-07T03:28:00.000-07:00

wdy, think you're on your way home from the states
take care and have a safe journey home :)

thanks brudder Jun

2005-07-31T06:09:00.000-07:00

Colours

2005-07-29T15:59:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i last blogged.
dunno why but my life has become sort of like a stand still for me.
while everyone else around me has life zooming by, occupied with so many activities.
i seem to be where i was since the beggining of the year.
kinda depressing to feel that you're not advancing.
life feels painfully slow now.

i was talkin to a friend yesterday and i realised that i had nothing to look forward to.
people get through a day feeling contented and happy cos they look forward to something,
like meeting someone, going for a movie or whtever.
it keeps them happy..
now i'm wondering, wht do have to look forward to??
heck, i didn't even look forward to my birthday.
it kinda sucked. spent it in camp..
haha :!
i dunno whats gotten into me.
everything seems to lose meaning and i feel that
nothing feels right. food has lost its taste, music has lost its meaning.
i feel that the everything around me has lost its colour.

hope the colours in my life will return.

Brunei

2005-06-26T19:03:00.000-07:00

hello one and all,
havn'et really stayed home since.. hmmm... i dunno when le, haha. but i finally stayed home today and just slack..
kinda tired now but not because i did anything, i didn't slepp.. ahhh... i really have to sleep before my trip to brunei.
so just in case u all can't find me, i'm in a jungle slogging away..
well, nothing much happening in my life, had steam boat at wei quan's house, his mother is super nice, brought breakfast for me and my friends, wei quan's mum rocks. so does my mum :)
lets see, batman begins is awesome.. oh man, i feel like watching it again. hopefully i'll get the dvd when it comes out.
movies i can't wait to be released, F4.. whoo hooo and war of the worlds. fantastic..
oh, and this is kinda late, thanks hilda for being my date, u looked amazing that night :)

well guys, wish me luck, i'm flying away..............................................

update

2005-06-11T00:47:00.000-07:00

nothing much to update..
i'm back from field camp. it was alright.
kinda feel empty right now. like life right now is nothing more than booking in and booking out.
life used to have so much more meaning.
gotta book in around 2 hours from now.
hope all of u have a better time..
take care guys :)

Greetings

2005-05-28T15:53:00.000-07:00

Wassup my homies..
i had a pretty fufilling week, caught star wars 3, kingdom of heaven, madagascar.
trust me, these shows rock..
haha, so here's my verdict, go catch them all.
on the not so good side, i've got a 7 day field camp next week and i'm not really forward to it. but sometimes we have to do things that we don't like in order to appreciate the little things we take for granted.
it seems like yesterday that i was hanging out with wdy and catching movies like theres no tmr.
fortunately, i've got friends who still wanna catch movie with an army botak boy. haha..
i didn't know the value of friends till everything that mattered in my life was gone.
wdy, my free time, time with family and watching my dvds...
ya, life's a bitch so you gotta bite it right back. i guess we all can't live life lying down.
we hav to take control of it.
i met some frens who say " you dun look like you've gone through army"
i find that funny cos deep inside, i feel somewhat changed. though i may not admit it,
i know it happened.
enough of me me me me AND me!!! haha..
hmm, too bad, i wanna say more about myself. haha...
anyways, we all have been confused in our lives. u think u like someone but u just can't be sure but that someone is being persued by someone else. u dunno why its such, but u feel wierd about the whole thing..
man, that is screwed man dawg..
anyways, take care guys :)

Qoute of the Day: "Dun give up on me, cause i haven't given up on you."

new post

2005-05-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

hiya..
its been awhile since i last posted, nothing musch to say really, will update movies soon.
but in the mean time, here's a couple of shoutouts..
sotong, know you're sick, hope you get well soon k.. take care.
to my mama, minyan.. take care and hope to see ya around..
i was having lunch the other day when i suddenly realised the person was beautiful..
the smile totally made my day, haha..
i was in awe...
haha, anyways, take care ya all. going back into camp...

Peace out :)

troubled

2005-04-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

this week was a pretty hectic week, with section movements and jungle stuff. but the most irritating part was the timings for us to book. y do they always have to make us bk out so late. hai... i've been feeling troubled all day long.. y?? its strange cos i suddenly thought about alot of things like what i really want to do with my life? and army sort of put my life on a stand still. its strange that u could feel happy one moment and later everything started slamming into your face. i see all my uni friends all stressed out about their exams that i couldn't help but share abit of their stress.
its difficult to see them push themselves so hard and sound tired and stressed. i mean, i've studied for exams b4 but not like this. nothing like this.

however, on a much happier note, i went out to dinner with a fren and chit chat. i really enjoyed myself, i haven't talked to someone so long for a long time. it was nice. i didn't club, i just sat down with a fren and chatted away.

this week, army's gonna be abit rough, gonna go for a 4 day mission. can't wait for next bk out, but i guess i have to take things one day at a time. the day seems to pass faster that way. actually, i'm kinda sad that wendy's leaving for the states soon. i guess i'll miss her. but who wouldn't miss a fren going overseas for a couple of months.

today i'm not really in the best of moods but last night really made my week, the chocolate cake was AWESOME.. haha, anyways, maybe the title shouldn't be troubled but CHOCOLATE cakeeee.. woooo......

to those taking their exams, all the best. xuan, wdy, leen, bee, chris, sotong......
take care guys...

happy

2005-04-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

hello guys.. i'm back from camp for.... 1 day.. this sucks. to those who see the title, it says happy..
so what am i so happy. this will be a long entry, so feel free to leave if u need to go to the toilet, haha :)
1) i got pass a pretty tough week in camp
2) i watched Be cool.. super funny movie. tell u about it later on.
3) i did something i wouldn't do.

ok, cough cough, ahem....
this is your fav film critic who does not get payed to critic. sigh, bo money liao.. haha..
Be Cool, abt this ex hit man going into the music business, played by john travolta. he is super cool can. theres this one scene where some dumbass russian started shooting at him, he just calmly walked out and lit his cig only to find the bald, dumbass russian ran out of bullets. haha, hilarious.
unfortunately, the whole story is relatively weak, with individual scenes rather than a flowing movie... cedric the entertainer and andre 2000 from outkast were really funny as a bunch of black gangstas.. haha.. funny as hell.. i enjoyed it with brudder fab.
i can't believe i actually messaged someone i hardly know. but it was nice, we chatted and it got me through the week, or else it would have been pretty difficult. i was the bloody platoon sgt, soo stressful, always kena fucked by the sgt. y the platoon fall in so late, y this, y that.
hai ya.. nvm la, like wht i've been saying this past week, today is a good day :) get past everyday like there's no tommorrow. time will past faster then.. serious.

i know some of my friends are really stressed now and i'll never be able to understand how they feel neither can i do anything to help them. it sucks to feel that u can't do anything to help your friends, u can only sit back and give them moral support. i really wish we could all go through the tough times together. xuan, bee, leen, chris. i really wish we could get through this difficult period together like how we did in jc. we could do anything, there was no mountain too high, no river too wide for us to overcome. but know this, we'll be there fighting on with u.
ah xian, i dunno whats been bothering u but i hope you'll be able to work things out. take care seXy.. haha..

Think of me
Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye
Remember me
Once in a while, please promise me you'll try
When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment
Spare a thought for me
We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea
But if you can still remember
Stop and think of me
Think of all the things we've shared and seen
Don't think about the way things might've been
think of me
Think of me waking, silent and resigned
Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind
Recall those days
Look back on all those times
Think of the things we'll never do
There will never be a day when I won't think of you.

think of me- phantom of the opera sountrack

really nice song, check it out, lyrics also very meaningful.
take care guys, see ya soon :)

Qoute of the day: always look for the good in people.....

i got sooo smashed

2005-04-03T15:27:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey..
check this out, i partied at MS last nite. derwin invited me to this party.
the night started off pretty boring but as the night wore on, it was happening. haha...
my brudders, alex and ms sun yanzi were there. btw, it was alex's birthday.
happy birthday to u :)
wanted to drown my worries in alcohol but i couldn't quite do it. dun get me wrong, i tried really hard to drink as much as humanly possible. but i couldn't quite black out. hai...
this has to be the happiest day of my week. i had fun :)

this is a shoutout....
yo brudder jerry, go for the kill man, ya know wht i mean ya.. haha..
brudder fab, i know u were abit troubled last night, but i couldn't have taken care of alex and ms sun and myself. glad u were there brudder...

life is kinda funny in many ways, right now, life is like soo confined cos of army, u absolutely can't do anything u want. your passions and your hobbies have all been put on hold. there r really so many things i wanna do but i just dun have the time to do it. i waste time and sit around waiting for some guy to give an instruction. to make matters worse, i was home for less than 24 hours. i guess i have to suck it up for another week. had a pretty heated conversation with wdy last week. guess sometimes its better to keep things that matter the most to u inside. but i hope things r alright with us. hope we'll still talk as friends.

i'm really tired now, hope i get through another week in camp. take care guys :)

loving someone who loves someone else

2005-03-27T10:38:00.000-08:00

"in many ways we have loved people who have loved others but ourself
it hurts not because we are not loved by them but simply because we want them to be happy even if it means they are with someone else
i guess that's life for you
once someone loved me but i was in love with someone else
even though that was so i still gave myself a chance to know the other party
in the end i fell in love
but alas, the other person's heart is no longer there.
he loves someone else"

dun be dishearten, we all loved and lost. its simply a matter of picking up the broken pieces
and mending a broken heart

yo leen, all the best for your presentation and in your new Adventures in uni.
its not gonna be easy but it will definitely be interesting. take care and good luck :)
oh man, went out with moi pal, ah quan. had lunch and were just chatting. you r really strong man, really admire that in you. hope you're singing career kicks off than you'll be able to treat us all. haha...
xuan, know you're really busy with uni stuff so i dun expect u to have time to read my entry. anyways, hope you'll do fine. just remember to not let your ambition get the better of u. you'll just sink deeper into it. but, i have faith in you, i know you'll pull through any obstacles and emerge victorious. after all, you are THE BIG ONE :)

had a good break this week, long weekend and all. surprisingly, i stayed home most of the time. though it was really sian, it feels nice. went to my grandparents place a few days ago, i felt a sense of nostalgia. i felt safe. haha.. of course, been living there all my life. haha...
i saw wendy the other day, just for awhile but it was worth it. she looked beautiful :)
fab, if you're reading this, i know you're hurting inside, just know that there r others who feel the same way. u are not alone, u got your brudders like ME. haha... mr all brawn, no brains. haha..
in many ways, we in the army view the world alot differently than others. we see the world moving alot slower than wht others see. good and bad in their individual aspects.

take care guys & see ya soon :)
peace out.. A-town...

shutter

2005-03-19T08:41:00.000-08:00

oh man, shutter utterly rocks man.. haha..
here i am, your movie reviewer, resurrected from the depths of army life.. muahahaha..
and just when you thought that army will stop me from catching movies, piss off, i'm back biatch.
firstly, just caught shutter yesterday at christie's church thing. wau lau, i was creeped out. but it was fun.. quan, xuan,bee, you missed out.. haha..
where did the producers find such a creepy looking lady from thailand???
haha, anyways, the movie was definitely an above average horror movie and deserves a thumbs up.
ok, moving on to the more recent movies, caught series of unfortunate events, hitch and Robots.
series of unfortunate events was good. i liked the magical surrounding and jim carrey so rocks....
haha.. hitch is funny, with will smith totally stealing the show. lastly, robots was AWESOME...
the visual effects are out of this world. though the story line was somewhat simple, but the attempts of making the movie more action pack did not go to waste. the catch scenes and the fighting scenes were well done.
overall, i have yet to watch a crappy show.. hmm, hopefully it never happens. oh yah, one more movie, i mean 2 more movies..
1) closer
the show was fantastic. not becos of its storyline but simply because of the fantastic acting. clive owens and natalie portman really shine.
2)howl's moving castle
wau lau, this so super niceeee... haha.. one word, enjoyable.

well, thats all the scope i got for u guys. going back into camp tmr. so see ya guys around.

ps: all the best for the talent quest quan, we'll be there 2 cheer you on :)

really really late entry

2005-03-11T20:50:00.000-08:00

been really busy lately, i just had my POP.
quite happy yet sad at the same time. happy cos i'll have a i and a half week break, sad cos i won't be able to seee my bunk mates. i really made some really good frens there.
this goes out to you guys, peace dudes..

strange thing is that the moment i POP, i could only think of one person. how much i wished the person could be there to share that happy moment with me.

i talked to a fren a week or so ago and i think i offended my fren. i really didn't mean to offend, i guess i didn't put it the right way.
i didn't know what to say, but i was really glad she liked the present i gave to her for her birthday. have you ever felt the sweet taste of satisfaction give something to a person and they like it, i felt on top of the world then.

i gotta work on my communicative skills, lately i've been the target for communication problem jokes.. haha, guess i can't communicate well..

take care one and all :)

army

2005-02-26T05:08:00.000-08:00

hi guys.. nothing much for me to say. miss all my friends and sorry i couldn't hang out with you guys.. take care and be happy..

update..

2005-02-10T13:11:00.000-08:00

hello guys, guess who's back, back again..
its me.. haha, anyways, i haven't had time to update cos i spent 2 weeks in camp.. haha, i just finished my field camp than booked out just a couple of days ago.
field camp was alright with bugs biting me and the POWDER bathe.. haha..
i could not even imagine how smelly i was after just 1 week out in the field.
but man did i stink.. haha... even my mum couldn't take the smell of my clothes.. she almost fainted.. haha..

this is also to a shout out to all my buddies out there.. err... somewhere, wherever you all might be..
to my new army friends, one of the funniest and slackest batch of guys i have ever met.. haha, happy lunar new year to you all..
to A01 haha, happy new year guys, fab mr leopard company and jun mr grifen company, haha..
rob and jerry, enjoy your break man cos army is not something i WOuld Recommend..haha..
quan, eileen, chris, xuan and bee, see ya guys real soon...
in many ways this year's chinese new year is different for me. i want to see my family, army really does put alot of things in perspective like what's really impt in your life.
familty and friends... and sleep :)

to ms wendy, happy 21st birthday.. and a happy lunar new year..
take care..

peace out guys..

training rules

2005-01-22T21:40:00.000-08:00

hello one and all, as you all know i've been in a pretty bad state for awhile.
i'm kinda relieved now.
now i know how she really feels.
i'm happy for her that she moved on, as much as i want my ex and i to work things out.
i realise that, why do i want to work things out.
simply the reason that i want her to be happy.
i'm happy when you're happy..

thanks jay for being there when i was really down.
thanks xuan for giving me the "old" advice i needed.
i've decided to train full time now, to persue my passion to be the best.
its the only thing i'm sure of now.
if you love someone, you gotta set them free.
sound cliche right but i think its the best.

i'm surrounded by friends who i only appreciate when i'm in a crisis.
but i glad you guys are around. to the people of a01 to my click of 5 buddies, to long lost friends and even basketball buddies.

thanks guys, training time starts now....

Army

2005-01-21T06:49:00.000-08:00

i'm back.. i just booked out on thursday..
army life has been alright with frens i met along the way.
but in many ways, army has been a pretty tough place to be..
the first couple of days were really hard, kept thinking of wdy..
i remembered talking to her one night.. i was soo happy.

hi to one and all

2005-01-08T14:02:00.000-08:00

hello...
i guess most of you know i'm going into army today at 3.45pm.
although going into army is no big deal but many things have happened after my a levels.
i realised that i've been an arrogant, self centred and selfish individual.
i have even taken other people who i truely care about for granted. that was unacceptable.
it was one night that a good friend sat down with me and had a heart to heart talk.
i know its too late to change many things in my life, if i could go back and changed the things i've done, i would but the truth is, i can't.
i'm doing all i can to amend my mistakes.

to my class of 2004 A01, thanks for being such a great class to be in, i couldn't have gone through another year of school without you guys. from the wacky and funny fabian, robbin to the cool jerry to doug and mr jun, aka playstation king. alexis, beat, shar, wing, ai lin, zq, maly thanks for everything.. can't explain how much it means to have such friends..

to my 5 great friends, mr ang wei quan, ms eileen tan, ms tan jiing shyuan, ms bee tze and ms christie.
ah quan, thanks for everything man, still remember the haircuts at your place and the constant suaning of how slow your hair grows compared to mine.. haha, we've come really far. still remember the first day we met, you me and hsu chieh climbed over the gate to escape school, those were fun times.
eileen, haha, been your punching bag for as long as i can remember, life in school would be less exciting without you in it..
bee.. i've always found you with such a strong character that it totally empowers me.. i dunno what to do.. haha, but you and i have had our share of biting sessions.. you biter...
chris, it seems we haven't really met up as a group, i know you're busy and all so no worries mate.. haha, you've got one of the nicest hearts i've ever know. i haven't seen you angry before..
lastly, shyuan...
i guess, in a way, we've had more close encounters... i can say that in a way, you know what my strenghths and weaknesses are. i remembered that we had such a heated argument that we didn't talk for a period of time. that has to be one of the moments i truely treasured cos whatever happens, we'll always work things out, finding more about each other. we're buddies rite. and hope we'll be like that till.. ermmm... i dunno lah, just for a really long time..
i know university life is not easy for you all, xuan and bee have soo many activities in their uni..
whatever makes you all happy, i'll support you guys all the way, 110% all the way.

to wendy: we've been through too much together, both happy and painful.. but i hope we'll remain good friends in the many years to come, i know i'm not an easy person to be with, so for that i'm sorry, but whtever happens, i'll always be there to support you. i'll be there rain or shine. i still remember the first movie we watched, treasure planet. u were kinda surprised that i asked you out for a movie. you thought that the little jelly creature was soo cute.
we're pals right, no. 1 frens rite.. this fren gonna be there by your side all the way. thanks for being a caring friend, you were the one who got me through the difficult times, i still remember complaining to you about yong and training.. you were the one who got me through my a levels. i was soo slack that i didn't do much.. but you encouraged me and stuck with me. haha, i manage a B for maths. not bad hoh, but the rest suck lah.. haha.. i couldn't have done it without you.
take care and hope you're happy with your uni life :)

army is not the end of the world but its definitely the beggining of a new phase in my life.
i dunno whether i'll change nor will i know what will happen, but what i know now is that the world is a unpredictable place where we must rise to the occasion or be left behind.
but friends is what makes the world alot pleasant to live in.

take care guys..........
see ya in a few weeks..

lonely

2005-01-06T16:21:00.000-08:00

Lonely I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno
got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullsh** then one day
she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was feenin,
so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years,
tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
cuz ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant believe I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life,
after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side,
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
I really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
been through
out chasing u

Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be,
aint no one in the globe I'd rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Never thought that id be alone, I didn't hope you'd be gone this long,
I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout,
I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

-lonely by Akon

is it really Over??

2005-01-06T08:47:00.000-08:00

yesterday was i worst day of my life, i couldn't believe what i heard.
i met up with my ex last nite and we talked..
first we went to watch meet the fockers, it was a pretty funny show but i didn't laugh.
i had soo much pain in my heart that nothing felt happy anymore..
why did i leave her in the first place?
i hate myself soo much for doing that, if it wasn't for that day i over reacted, things would be nothing less than perfect.
she said she didn't love me anymore, and no feelings for me whatsover..
is it really true dear??
do u really believe that we can't work this thing out?
if you still wanna be with me, i'll always be there..
i feel horrible now becos i'm selfish..
but i'm only selfish cos i'm crazy abt her.
it kinda feels that someone drove a knife into your heart and its still in there and u try to pull it out but i wouldn't move..
i just want her back.
dear was the only one who was there for me whether during trying or happy times..
i couldn't have got through alot of things without her..
i wanna scream out that i miss her and pray that she'll hear me.
why can't things piece back together nicely??
i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't think straight.
i'm a wreck. what can i do to make things up??
why do i always do stupid things to the ones i care about.
i've got NS now and time is really impt, but i can only think abt one thing to do with the time given to me.
i know alot of people hate me cos i hurt her so bad, but i just wanna say i still love her and i'm willing to do anything.

i'm sad and alone, miserable and it still hurts so bad....
i want her to be happy.
i want to give her happiness.

i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad.
this is how i feel.
someone please tell her i miss her..

nice song

2005-01-06T08:21:00.000-08:00

and so it is
just like you said it would be
life goes easy on me
most of the time
and so it is
the shorter story
no love no glory
no hero in her skies
i can't take my eyes off of you
and so it is
just like you said it should be
we'll both forget the breeze
most of the timeand so it is
the colder water
the blower's daughter
the pupil in denial
i can't take my eyes off of you
did I say that I loathe you?
did I say that I want to
leave it all behind?
i can't take my mind off of you
my mind
'til I find somebody new

-blower's daughter by damien rice

LA food

2005-01-04T23:30:00.000-08:00

hi one and all, this is me in LA, eating some LA food man, hahaha..
they served pretty good food, loved it..

wassup...

2004-12-25T01:42:00.000-08:00

helo guys..
i'm now in nyc, new york city..
its winter here and the cold is almost foreign to me..
its soo cold that even under 3 layers of clothing and a jacket, i was still freezing..
ah well, the people here are kinda like singapore, the lifestyle was also much faster than LA..
today quite farny, its christmas and i was in a cab and the cab driver atitude my frens and i...
than one of my fren spoke in indian accent to allow the indian driver to understand him..
haha, man, an ugly situation turned farny.. quite entertaining..

anyways, to everyone, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year..
i can't wait to go home..
after all there's no place like home..
take care and may Happy Holidays :)

No. 1 fren: couldn' t get through to u..
here's a special holla
Merry X'mas Wdy and hope you're x'mas is a happy one :)

wassup...

2004-12-24T23:42:00.000-08:00

waassup...

2004-12-22T01:03:00.000-08:00

hello one and all..
i'm now slowing down the amt of activities i'm doing now...
haha, i'm watching shuan of the dead now on dvd at a fren's place..
haha, quite farny soo farrr...
kinda miss home rite now...
things here have been great soo far, but there are some things that i really miss..
prata, hokkien mee, rojak.. all the glorious food availiable.. yummy..
over here, there's like only western food, burgers and really crappy chinese food..
haha...
oh well, see ya guys soon..
take care..

take care moi no. 1 fren.. great to hear your voice :)

time..

2004-12-20T10:16:00.000-08:00

i suddenly realised how much time i have on my hands now..
though i thought that i have been busy all the time, truth is, i have soo much time that i could think about all sorts of things. i dunno why i think abt such stuff..
is it just for the spur of the moment??
i really don't think soo..
i feel guilty and selfish for putting the pressure and making it hard on a fren.
but what else can i do???
should i preoccupy myself with more activities to distract myself??
i think that the prob will still come back..
that's no escape for me..
time is precious but sometimes don't we all feel we have too much of it that we indulge in other activities to reduce the number of hours we feel bored..
i guess in some ways its a really clever idea to fill your days with stuff to do.
however, i honestly feel that to appreciate the things around, u gotta take step back and take time to look..
things always seem too complicated and hard when we're sooo consumed...

being appreciative is something all of us can have more of...

take care and have a happy day guys :)

hello....

2004-12-20T01:48:00.000-08:00

hi one and all..
i've got news... haha...
i went to beverly hills.. haha.
.and i went to niketown..
tht's where the latest nike stuff are on sale..
b4 that guess what.
stars seen- 1
movies seen- nil...
guess who i saw..
I saw RObbie Williams..
oh man, he was this other guy and both of them looked kinda gay..
oh well, nothing much happened..take care all :)

p.s: super happy today, thanks to my no. 1 fren.. so happyyyy :)

sad day...

2004-12-18T02:36:00.000-08:00

hi one and all, i had quite an enjoyable day...
morning, i went to the uni to play ball in the indoor basketball court..
it was fun, though the air was kinda thin and i had difficulty breathing..
after that, went and did some shopping..
finally ended the day by watching lemony snickens a series of unfortunate events..
it waS REAlly good.. go catch it when it opens in town...
my day was happy as a whole but i guess i was kinda sad when i was talking to a close fren..
dunno why after talkin i felt like crap..
things should get better..
looking forwaRD to going home.. take care guys.

hello...

2004-12-16T22:31:00.000-08:00

hey guys, today has been quite a lazy day..
i slept at 3am last night and woke up at 11am.. haha..
after waking up, left my fren's place to the California state uni of Long beach..
oh man, was the place B E A utiful...
haha, they had a library that opened 24 hours and they had a room for pool and a bowling alley..
ahh.. the place was soo nice..
i then had dinner at place called Bubba Gump.
it was named after the movie Forest Gump..
go catch the movie if you don't know wht i'm talking abt. haha...

stars seen- zero
movies seen- ocean eleven... haha..
holla to mr ah xian, glad you're safe from your overseas trip.. take care :)
alex.. how ya doing babe.. i'm having a blast here.. take care..

p.s: talked to my my no. 1 fren..
hahaha... can't keep smiling :)

update...

2004-12-15T23:49:00.000-08:00

hello one and all, welcome to the update of your fav Reporter...
today i was at the grove, santa monica...
i saw, guess who... Lorenzo Lamas..
haha, he's the guy who was one of the judges in the show, Are You Hot...
haha, man was he tall, he was at least 1 and a half heads taller than me...

haha, so guys, tune in next time while i bring you more on the happenings of Hollywoood :)
cheers...

The city of Angels..

2004-12-14T01:37:00.000-08:00

hello one and all...
i'm in los angeles, california hollywood..
weather here is cool and sunny all day, people here are soo friendly...
anyways, here i am, your fav movie reviewer in the city of stars and movies...
stars seen- none.
movies watched- zero..
but don't worry, your fav movie reporter will be hot the heels of them...
pls stay tune while i give you the latest news in the entertainment capital of the world..

anyways, this goes out to ms zq.. haha, the other night, i was chatting with her and dunno why she was soo high, quite farny loh.. so of there's anything any of u want, let me know..

in the meantime, happy holidays and hope u guys stay healthy and happy.. take care...

P.S: i've found my no. 1 fren.. damn happy, ahhhh... haha.. can't stop smiling. take care and stay happy my no. 1 fren :)

Warning...

2004-12-11T23:32:00.000-08:00

guys..
this is a warning.. do not, i repeat, do not watch blade trinity..
do not watch national treasure.. they both didn't appeal to me..
so if you guys wanna catch a movie.. go watch phantom of the opera..
its super niceee... haha...
so take care and happy movie hunting...

Prom night

2004-12-08T15:01:00.000-08:00

hey guys, what's happening.. guess that those who went for prom are pretty exhausted.. i am..
congrats to lynette and russel, erm is that how you spell it??
oh man, prom was alright, i thought the food was not bad.. the baby octopus was my fav.. haha..
i had a great time hanging out with my class, and MY goodness, everyone was soo well dressed..
just to name a few, alexis, zq, ailin and wing.. oh my, they were really dressed to kill.. you girls were H O T.. haha, needless to say, my bruddders were all dressed in killa style..
jerry had the GQ look, fabian had the HK pop star look and Robbin was casually dressed.. WITH style.. haha... in my eyes, these 3 should have been PRom kings, with jerry leading the way.. haha, but russel did deserve it, no doubts abt it..
after prom, zq, jerry, me, alex, ailin and wing made our way to the club.. some Coco something club.. haha, its was pack man, cannot squeeze onto the dance floor.. so sian man, and they were playing damn nice HIP HOP music, i couldn't stop moving.. haha...
but finally, a whole group of us went up to the dance floor and squeezed our through.. and man was i pissed with some guys who mercilessly push girls out of the way to get to the middle of the dance floor.. come on lah you Dickheads, a little gentlemanlyness never hurt anyone..
i kinda pushed back some guys who tried crushing poor alex and zq.. haha, man did it feel good..
haha...
the music was WICked.. haha.. some of the nj girls can really dance.. the 3 prom queens for instance caught alot of people's attention( including mine, hahaha....).
man, can they shake.. haha...
at 3am, everything ended and we all took a slow but painful stroll back to the hotel..
it was nice.. hope you all had a memorable graduation, i know i did.

special holla to Sharon and Faith, i thought they look exceptionally good, especially kan chiong mama, cannot recognise her loh.. i was thinking, is that sharon??? cannot be.. haha.. its a good thing.. and FAith, oooh, someone got approached.. haha, goes to show you looked exceptionally well that night..
take care to all and have a early Merry X'mas :)

thank you

2004-12-06T11:40:00.000-08:00

holla to mr quan and the 2 lovely ladies xuan and bee for the enjoyable yet painful on the cheeks experience.. haha.. thanks guys, really appreciate it..
holla to my brudder jun lin, hey man, if you're reading this, good luck for army and what ever you do.. DO NOT PICK UP THE SOAP..
yo gaybian, prata buddy, next time got craving for prata, let's get hammered with prata.. haha

doing what's right

2004-12-05T22:56:00.000-08:00

i had a rough week. i got into a terrible argument with a friend but it has been resolved.
i felt so much better after all the ordeal.
for once in a long time, i feel free of troubles and frustration.
at that point, i realised that i missed certain things in my life.
i have neglected certain responsiblities that i wish nothing more than amend.
i wanna do what's right. i need to.
i believe that so long as you do wht's right, there is really nothing to regret.
on the hand, you'll always feel guilty if you've something wrong.
i guess i've done lotsa wrong things in my life that i really hope that i chance for me will surface and i can redeem myself.
its a personal thing that i feel is impt to everyone.

check this out...

2004-11-26T14:03:00.000-08:00

There is no option for potential unachieved.
prodigies have it worse.
hype is not a dream that comes true.
haters always linger. praying for the downfall. the temptation suffocatesthe mind, the body, the soul, the spirit.
the weak succumb, but the strong go beyond survival. until self doubt rears its unwelcomed head. forcing even the greatest, most confident individuals into internal interrogation.
complacency grows.
the awards and rewards begin to feed the ego, taking away the hunger. the hunger that once fed not just the talent, but kept the work ethic, the hustle, the pride, the need to become the best from malnourished.

Never give in...
Leborn 2...

A's Are Over

2004-11-24T10:51:00.000-08:00

alright.. don't need to tell y'all why i'm happy.. haha
its the second time that i got this feeling..
honestly, it feel reallly good..
haha, anyway.. hola...
thanks A01 for making doing the damn A's soo fun..
don't think i had soo much fun in school ever..
damn, if only all the classes in nj were like A01, it'll be the most happening sch in town...
haha...
yo jerry brudder, you are good man, you seem to attract all sorts of girls, from those who are attached to those the size of the universe.. you ARE GOOD.. haha...
yo jun, prepare yourself, i'm gonna invade your home for PS 2 marathon.. haha..

btw, i just went for a run this morning.. wau lau, i almost died can..
haha, i was so tired while running back home, i almost hit the lamp post..
i even scared the shit out of an old lady at the bus stop.. haha... she thought i was gonna fall on her..
don't worry aunty, i'll sure as hell try to not fall on you.. haha :)

cheers guys and have fun.. a special hola to my funny fren gaybian and hardworkin Robby..

Dadada...

2004-11-20T19:20:00.000-08:00

thanks for all the words of encouragement..
ah xian, thanks..
ah jun, thanks, hope those people queing up for our Zen set got drenched in the rain this morning.. haha..
j, thanks dude, can always count on you dawg..
zq, thanks babe. all the best for your last few papers.. can do it one..
faith, thanks.. i got faith in you :)

i'm no longer angry cos it suddenly became clear that the only person hurting is myself. and that's really dumb. i agree with all who said that my fren wanted the best for me.. i guesss you're all right. i think i got really ticked off cos the end is soo near and the pressure just got to me..
hopefully i'll learn to control it..

check this out. just this morning during an NBA game, Detriot Pistons and Indiana Pacers got into a fight and the whole stadium just erupted... man, that was insane.. i think it'll be in the new, so go check it out. fortunately, noone was hurt real badly...

Pissed...

2004-11-19T20:49:00.000-08:00

i'm soo pissed now.
cause my friend told me stuff that i was really pissed..
firstly, i told him abt how excited i was about after a levels..
and what the fuck did he say, you better study harder..
What??? you think i dunno that i need to study meh??
and say that i'm complacent.. Fuck.. i look complacent meh..
i was soo pissed.. giving me shit for nothing..
later on, he was nicer to me.. telling me about his church stufff..
fuck, do i look interested??? you give me shit then expect me to listen
to you?? i don' think so..
No, there's no double meaning in my its over. its just its over FOR MY exams...
i'm super ticked off and hope i'll get over it..
my mum also ticked me off by encouraging my friend...
you're my mother for crying out loud..
shouldn't you be on my side.. i'm really disappointed.

stupid

2004-11-18T17:25:00.000-08:00

just took a test to see how much i knew about my ex..
guess what, i didn't know a single thing other than the most obvious things.
i'm really pathetic. who doesn't know stuff abt their gf..
feel damn stupid.
i guess sometimes the smallest things matter the most.
like i just remembered my pri school walkway that i used to walk everyday to get into the school.
its a little path that led from the bus stop to the front gate. i just realised how much i miss the sound of the crickets and the frogs living near the foot path. dunno whether its still there. whatever it is. i'll definitely visit it one day.
till then, i hope i'll treasure the tiny things that we take for granted.

peace out.

Its Over....

2004-11-17T20:34:00.000-08:00

just had econs paper 3 today.
think i totally screwed up paper again.
thats it. i dunno what i'll do if i don't make it.
thanks jing xuan, alexis for the encouragement.
i'll try my best for the other papers.
dunno what i'll do.
really dunno what to do.

a Shout out...

2004-11-14T18:18:00.000-08:00

yo ms tan jing xuan.. finally know that i exist.. thanks for the "drop by and say hi" note..
i feel soo wanted.. haha... take care girl and we will all meet up one day..

nothing much to say.. been a pretty boring day as it is.. but man, was the weather hot like crap...
anyways, i'm damn pissed now.. feel that i shouldn't care..
you know that sometimes we shouldn't care about anything at all and just sit back and look at the world. sometimes when we care too much about the things, we end up screwing things up..
eg: when you care too much about......
ai yah, mind BlocK.. cannot think lah.. anyways..
caring too much may hurt you more than when you didn't care tht much..
but, ironically, i feel that i should care more in other aspects of life..
anyways, i'm pretty incoherant right now..

regarding my previous blog... i don't care if you give fucking ban a chance.. hell, i don't give a rat's ass if you gave anyone else a chance.. haha, i don't care at all. feeling sinical at this moment.. CAuse i don't give a FUCK....

on a lighter and calmer note.. all the best for the papers.. last 2nd week.. ah.. haha..
so close... study hard people.
and i apologise for the foul language used. hope reading this, hope you're not offended..

Sorry.

Waitin' Basketball

2004-11-12T22:48:00.000-08:00

oh man, my previous entry got mix reviews.. haha..
alex, you sure you're not gonna have kids??? we'll see, maybe you'll eventually have 6..
haha.. zq's and ah xian are rite..
i can't generalize and say all those old people sit on their asses.. i would't know
how hard they worked in the past. My bad...
yo philly, got study not.. all the best dude..

was watching basketball, detriot pistons vs denver nuggets.. oh man, one is being lead by Richard Hamilton and the other, hot stuff rookie Carmelo Antony.. oh man, they were awesome.. but the player i most admire is the 5 foot 5 point guard Earl boykins.. this guy is only 1.7 m.. and he's in the NBA.. oh man, he was really quick and even scored the final ball b4 the first quarter ended.. Amazing..

i take my hat off.. he's good.. really good..

i just heard from a fren who is being pursued by this guy called Ban.. i know its really none of my business but in my opinion, she should give this guy a chance.. why wait?? don't hesitate lah, go for it girl.. there are some things in life that we should wait and some that shouldn't. its tough waiting and noone should wait..
example: waiting for food.. you wait cause you expect good food.. the food will come cause you paid for it.. hence, we should wait..
2) waiting for the sky to drop.. Er.... terrible example, shalll we move along..
3) waiting for someone to call you. let's say this really hot guy or girl asked for your number.. so you wait for the call.. will they call??? the thing is, we're not sure.. there is no certainty in this matter. so why wait. if they call, good for them, if not, their lost.. too bad soo sad..

in the a level context, why wait or yearn for the exams to be over. it'll be over soon enough. so study and make use of the time you have now. don't waste it. if you do, when the time comes for you to embrace the sweet taste of freedom, you'll regret it. Will you then enjoy your holidays???

hope this is useful to y'all.

P.S: and to all those who said Shark tale is a dissapointment, well.. everyone is entitled to their own opinion.. but..............

you can all kiss my BIG White ()()...
in case you all wonderin wht is this ^.. its my butt...
enjoy :)

Growing Old

2004-11-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

thanks for the comments guys.. my brudders, damn touched..
haha, Yo jun, don't worry abt it, work harder for the paper 2, think you cab
do it one.. R.. V forever man.. Gebla... haha..

anyways, i've been seeing old people lately. dunnno why
but i feel sympathy towards them and feel that we should appreciate
what we have now.. i feel sad to see all these old people still working and carrying heavy
loads for a living. noone should be doing that with noone to care for them.
especially when you're way past your prime.
have you all wondered what you'll be like when you become old and tired???
i couldn't bare the thought of it. its scary to think of it. but we can't escape it can we..
i guess we can only hope someone will be there to look out for us.
will they be our frens we have now?? unlikely. is it our present family?? i wonder....
i really hope people can extend a hand to those people.
on my way to school at 8 in the morning, i saw this elderly lady carrying 2 large
bags of recycled waste towards the back of some shophouses. i really admire the strength that they have to perservere on. i wouldn't be able to do it.

i was at bishan today with jerry, alex and zq studying. behind us, this 2 old ladies were sitted on the sofa doing nothing.. slacking away.. weird issit it, that some elderly fight to survive, while others just sit on their horizontally challenged asses. we should all learn from these admirable old people. by the way, have you all heard of this senior citizen award to outstanding Sn Citizens..
there were a couple of nominees, but you know what, why the hell you give recognition to those living comfortable and satisfying lives?? I SAY give it to those working 24 7. working their butts off for peanut pay. they deserve it.

i don't deserve the stuff i get.. but guess life is unfair in this sense.
people who deserve something don't get it, and vice versa.

hardest thing to do is to live and move ahead.
think abt it when you all are taking your A levels..
Best wishes.

Maths Paper

2004-11-09T20:43:00.000-08:00

just ended maths p1 today..
it was more difficult than last year.. to think they actually reuse ques from
1999 and 2000 again.. there were some ques i had no idea what it was about.. haha...
oh well.... i'm gonna holla at some of my home boys...
yo jerry, no sweat dawg... study harder for the next paper, you can do it if you put your mind to it.. fabian, hope the paper was ok, all the best for the other papers ..
robbin, ya gotta get your game on. if you do that, hell, you'll be Unstoppable..
alexus, chill babe.. gotta take care of your health girl... take care alright..
jay, yo biatch.. counting down the days we'll hang out.. bet you're getting a woody just thinking abt it huh.. i'll be there dude, word is bond dawg..

peace out everyone, take care y'all..
P.S: yo ah peng thanks for the word of encouragement, appreciate it :)

reading hurts

2004-10-28T20:24:00.000-07:00

ever had that feeling that there are things you should not read
cos it'll only make you feel frustrated and angry..
for example, had a fren who read his ex's blog when they won't together..
the fact was he hurt after he read it..
poor guy..
think i'll steer away too..
i'm guessing i'll feel the same way..

P.S: check out jerry's michelin poem..
its the best stuff yet...

USA

2004-10-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

i just found out my friend's going to new jersy next year for some job attachment for 3 months..
oh man, tht's a really long time..
hope that she enjoys herself and have a great time, its once in a lifetime opportunity..

nothing else to say...
yo xian wei and peng.. here's a shout out to both of you.. hope you guys are doing well and take care :)

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2004-10-21T20:07:00.000-07:00

2004-10-19T05:23:00.002-07:00

2004-10-19T05:23:00.001-07:00

exams are here..

2004-10-18T19:43:00.000-07:00

this is gonna be moi's last entry till after the big A's..
jus wishing all those taking the A's, all the best and
hope you'll get "more than wht you deserve"
qoute by Mr Dio..
take care :)

Tk U

2004-10-14T21:50:00.000-07:00

school's finally out and before you continue reading, let me warn you, this is gonna be a long entry...

i guess there's alot for me to say about school, after all i 've been in school a year longer than others.
but i know in my heart that njc is a place i'll never forget, from the days of slaving away in the gym, on the track and in the waters of the kallang basin to the :"wht's white, black and pink joke" which is by the way an ambabrus gebra... i've grown quite attached to this place..

as comfortable as it may sound it isn't easy for me to go back to school, even now.. i feel that i don't belong in this school anymore.. my time was up but yet i came back.. it just didn't go.. fortunately my class 03A01 helped.. even so, i missed my quieter and less happening class.. we had a bond that we shared even though we hardly talked.. strange but true.. i also missed my canoeing team mates who have gone through training, scolding and poor academic results together.. it was fun but scary..

i guess when people ask me whether i look forward to NS, i say yes.. not because i want free food and lodgings and certainly not cause of the harsh training.. No. its simply cause i want to be in a place where i feel i truely belong. i belong in NS. all my friends are in there slaving away and i'm out here.. haha, silly issit it.. some people want to skip NS, and here's an idiot wanting in..

life has been really kind to me.. i've got all a man could ask for yet i gotta screw things up for myself.. i have lots of regret, and no where to place them but inside.. but i'm grateful for everything..

finally, this is kinda cliche.. but special thanks to rob, fab, jer, doug, kha, jun, amir, zy, alex, wing, ailin, sim, muay, xiu, bi, beat, may, yan, zq for their extreme hospitality and their cheerfulness..

not forgetting ms shar for introducing her class to me.. thank u...

daniel

P.S: oh shit i forget to eat chikan currat today.. gaybian, you're the best :)

nil

2004-10-11T22:14:00.000-07:00

guess wht, my eye is damn swollen now... dunno why,
but i suddenly have this urge to go the kranji..
there's this cool hangout that i like..
sweet nostalgia..

P.S: fabian, You're the best... don't wanna miss lin shan, hurts like fuckk..

A Broken Vow

2004-10-10T19:22:00.000-07:00

Tell me her nameI want to know
The way she looks And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

Happy Birthday Ms Ting

2004-10-10T19:11:00.000-07:00

guess what, today's our dear Ms ting's birthday...
come on everyone, let's sing a song for her...
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Ms ting, happy birthday to you..

Yippeeee... oh man, i wonder how old ms ting is.. anyways, she'll always look young and radiant like a rock in the sun under the effect of weathering.. haha, i keed, i keed...

deep in our hearts, we know you're the best physical geog teacher anyone could ask for... thanks.

and the best to all in your studying... its close to the end... hang in there :)

Peace :p

P.S: happy birthday christie.........

nil

2004-10-08T21:04:00.000-07:00

today was a good day.
i was walking home from the bus stop when i stopped at the zebra crossing.
strangely, there were no signs of cars.
i looked around but only found the sun in my face.
it seemed to smile at me, i could only smile back.
something's amiss.
but what?
little details popped up everyway.
from the ants on the floor to rustling of the leaves.
calm. silent. still.
i observed the surroundings.
"beep Beep..."

the green man came on and i walked home with a sudden lost emotion..
i guess we should take a step back and see the tiny little details around us and appreciate them.
too aften we see what we want in a large perspective but maybe, just maybe, we'll be happier when we see the "little things" in our life....

Cheers Everyone :)

Never seek to tell thy Love

2004-10-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

Never seek to tell thy love,
Love that never told can be:
For the gentle wind does move
Silently, invisibly.

I told my love, I told my love,
I told her all my heart;
Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears,
Ah ! she doth depart.

Soon as she was gone from me,
A traveller came by,
Silently, invisibly:
He took her with a sigh.

yo yo yo..

2004-09-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

hello guys and galss.. wassup in the world of being bored and stressed..
guess what, this morning when i was on the bus, i kinda dozed off a couple of times and i hit my head on the side of the bus.. i got a big ba loo koo on my head.. damn painful can..
alexis is gonna be the top human geog student again.. woo hoo!!!!!! way to go girl.. you made our class damn proud..

er... actually, the human geog results are not out yet... hehe.. make things more exciting mah... yo alexis, its a joke k, don't whack me or something ok.. haha... anyways, todays weather was super cold man.. freezing my A#S off.. think i'm about to get a cold man.. haha...

Happy News... i got POCKET FIGHTERS on my com and i completed it.. now i can train, Fab, Rob, Jun and Jerry, you guys are in for a SURprise.. haha.. ah well, today play with fab pocket fighter and he kept losing...
mainly cause he use a different side of the keyboard.. sorry lah brudder, next time let you use my side lah.. hope this does not affect our INTIMAte friendship.. hehe :) i veri pai seh now... hohoho...

Peace out and LOng Live Slyvester, a.k.a the singapore idol chiao Ah beng :p

xing police story

2004-09-29T22:35:00.000-07:00

haha.. bet those reading this from my class, the best 03a01 got back their gp results...
did you guys do good?? i know me and some of the brudders didn't.. sigh... but its ok..
its alright.. if the results piss on us, we'll piss on the results.. life goe son, we'll work harder..
yeahhhh.....

just watched the lastest jackie chan movie. the new police story.. this show grossed more than 1 million by now and is still rising.. the show soo nice meh?? i don't really think so.. although the fight scenes were Bloody cool, but there was too much crying and the music just didn't sound rite.. music by a cheap electronic key board if you ask me..

this goes out to MS Ze Quan.. oei.. be more sentimental can?? people cry, you laugh?? huh?? no logic rite.. haha, but since you laugh, we all laugh with you.. hahaha... shit, a heartwarming moment turned into a joke.. hehe.. what the hell, its entertaining..

anyways, more from your fav reporter next time when i catch another movie.. oh yah, kan chiong mama.. kan chiong mama... WASS SUPPPP... are you ready for a wooooo.. fooooo! hurricane.. be scared, be wary wary scared..

peace out :)

Wassup

2004-09-26T16:39:00.000-07:00

wassup...
just watched resident evil 2 and i thought it was a pretty entertaining story.. basically the story is about alice (if you all dunno who's alice then not my prob, go catch the first movie) and she wakes up to find the whole city infected with the virus. as we all know, once the virus spreads, more zombies= more action.. although the fight scenes were overdone with coolness but the action still rocks.. some shock scenes here and there that will make girls (and guys) jump from their sits.. some attempts at comedy with some black dude cracking jokes..
overall its pretty good and it walks hand in hand with the video game story line.. to robbin, the show does not suck.. oh, and if you wanna see milla naked, the movie showed it, tht's why its nc 16..
haha, i sneaked my bro in.. but he'll be 16 in a few days.. got stopped by the ticket collector.. wht a strict guy..throughout the movie, the usherers were walking up and down checking.. strange.. but who cares, my bro got to watch it.. yeahh...

here's a qoute: "never do unto others if you don't want others to do unto you" er... or was it the other way.. dunno lah, i just wanna sound chim.. haha..

peace out :)

prelims are over

2004-09-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

AH............. hell man, prelims are sooo over..
just so you guys still having your exams, hang in there...

while i go PLAY.... Muah hahahaha...

but seriously. i think i totally cracked the prelims.. i mean i blew it dudes. who else out there feel the same way.. wave your hands in the air.. lemme see those hands. there you go, its alright to blow the prelims but the A levels cannot go wrong..

i've got little to say about movies but EVERYone, GO and WATCH...........
DODGE BALL the true underdog story..
Ben Stiller is super funny.. hahaha.. he's a genius..
another worth every penny is WHite Chicks.. two black FBI agents in a pair of white chick disguise.. hahaha.. the thought of it is already CRAZZZZZYYYYYY... haha...

this blog goes out to all the mosquitoes in class tc 13...SCREW all you pests...
i hate all of you, made me and jerry scratch like shit.. screw you...

peace out dudes....

Prelims

2004-09-16T11:27:00.000-07:00

hello boys and girls...
your movie critic is BACKKKK.. haha, unfortunately he has yet to go watch a single movie. i haven't been so lost in movie since... i dunno when lah, just a long time ago...
but, latest news, garfield the movie does not suck. that much. its an alright show that has abit of intelligent humour in it.. but i won't pay 8.50 for the show. max, 6.5o..
this is also a call out to MR JERRY HO.. GET OFF YOUR ASS and start STUDYING. brudder, i know you don't feel like it but there's only 2 more months. after that its holiday for 2 years... imagine that.. work hard brudder and may the forces of hip hop and rap instill the drive to work hard.. Prelims SUCK TO THE MAX...
but we still have to take it. so....... suck it up and have a MERRY chri.... i mean have a fruitful studying session.
peace out mofos...

ms beat

2004-08-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

dear ms beat.. of course you can link me.. haha..
this post is dedicated to all my fans.. thank you for supporting me..
i'll cook up somemore crap for all you eager listeners..
i'll like to thank my mum, my dad, my bro and ms ting for her undying love for geog..
i love geog..
to ms chan, thanks for telling the guys in class we always talk, i find your sweet, melodious voice "irreversible" just like the movie..

thank you all... peace out... S CLown...
:)

Maths Mock test

2004-08-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

oh man, todays mock test was terrible..
i only attempted the stats ques..
the rest i really cannot make it..
Er... how to do??? really dunno...
the graph also look like the work of a 3 year old kid..
super embaressin...
anyways next movie to look forward... RESIDENT EVIL 2.....
check this shit out....

Avp review

2004-08-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

here's the lowdown on how the Alien Vs Predator flick went.. it was a wednesday night. i went to lido to catch the last screening of the day and realised that there were alot of people eager to watch the movie.. strange.. didn't the reviews say it sucked.. i guess these were hardcore fans. the lights deemed and the 20th century theme came on... AVP... alien vs predator...

Bang Bang... "whad the hell was that???" "ah..............."
"You Ugly SON OF A B............" "No.... Help ME!!!!!!!!"

these are some of the lines in the movie.. honestly, i was abit disappointed with the predators... kinda Wussy At the end.. but Overall, it was one hell of a ride... no shit, just straight to the action. Special effects were great...

Enjoy........

daniel double u double u

2004-08-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

i love u daniel double u double u

do u know i love u too?

now come on boys and girls dun be jealous

i know his hair is damn irresistable cos its so sexy the way it flops down his hair

*****PORN EXTRACT*****
daniel looked at me and slowly ran his smooth fingers across my virgin landscape. he breathed huskily and a spittle of saliva emerged as he could not control his raging hormones. steadily, inexorably, he removed the last piece of obstacle that lay in his path. he removed my hand that lay protectively across my precious possession.

he ate my sandwich.

ANYWAY i am a gay so dun be a faye and how now brown cow oh no yellow crow. i rhyme.

K BYE

one more day...

2004-08-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

the moment of truth is 24 hours away.. the biggest battle will begin
i just read the review for avp, critics said it was a flop. let us the viewers be the judge of that shall we.. enjoy, i'll be there to review it.. youu can find it here on gangsta delight... peace out.

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A fairytale............

Smoothness

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*Time-Out*

My 2 Fav Gals.....

countdown

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Wonder

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Tired

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Rowing

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Thailand Once More

everyone's changing

same SHIT, different day

i'm so sick of love songs

SICK

what do ya think??

The Humpty Dumpty Love Song

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Long lost update..

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is it really Over??

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check this out...

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